Troubling Poetry

Well, apparently poetry writing is getting me into a heap of trouble. I have been writing poetry since the 4Th grade. I think its a little obvious to my professor. Basically I have been told to quit taking poetic license with my essays. So that means I must write in the proper grammatical structure. Well the trouble with this is I've been out of school for six years. During this time I've continued in my poetic endeavors. And actually forgotten how to write clearly. So I'm in trouble, I'm going to have to hunt for grammar help. Unfortunately I don't have much insight to offer today, other than poetry is going to lead to my inevitable academic death. Thus trapping me in my head where I'll be the only one who understands my creative and yet lonely sentence structure.

Xfiles, insight, and destination

Surprise surprise, someone who has titled their blog "destination twilight zone" is an XFILES fan. I loved this show, I came into it very late, actually it was after I saw the Xfiles movie that I began tuning in. On this show in regards to the writing, the writers have to be the cruelest human beings on the planet...Always an undertone, always subtle, always almost but not quite...It drove me insane, hence the shows ummm unique appeal. It was all wrapped up in the romanticism of agent's Mulder and scully. I watched with fingers crossed each week, hoping that this would be the episode, it would happen this week, Mulder and Scully would proclaim their undying love for one another.. And what I usually got was a hint, sometimes not so subtle....And always brief, And voala one day it in the last season it finally happened... After Mulder quit, went underground, After Scully bared Mulder's son this long awaited day came, For those that aren't familiar at how this unison happened after Scully bared her partner's child...Your guess is as good as mine LOL??? But I digress, when it did happen, when they became a couple, it was the biggest TV screen disaster of all time... Perhaps the biggest series let down ever...Was it bad writing? bad timing? Nah, actually I think the writing was quite creative...I think the answer lies in long term anticipation. Art imitates life doesn't it? Frequently, what we want the most in life, once achieved, becomes a let down.... We often figure out the journey of desire is more exciting than the actual destination itself.. Oh deflated expectation, silly humans (I imagine thats what God and aliens say when they look in on us to make sure we haven't killed off our species)...
. OOOOOOOOOOhhh I stun myself with my own babel.. And remember "THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE".... However once you find it, you might be disappointed....

Insane ammunition

Picture a firing squad, rowed up, women all in military green uniforms, aiming rifles, using insanity for gun powder, and atrocious words as ammunition. Picture their foe strapped to a time withered, wooden pole, awaiting their pummeling and the slow death of their soul. Not that words can kill or even maim, no what they do is much worse. Its slow depraved torture, killing a minute piece of self esteem, a small fragment of that person's soul, one malicious utterance at a time. There have been times that I've been on the firing squad, aiming the gun believing that I had the right. I consider these instances to be the absolute worst mistakes I've ever made in my life, thus far.
And just where are you going with this you're probably wondering., I know, I know, I'm going to say something thats been said a million times before. Please bare with me, I just wanted to share a little insight.

Think about what you say, how you say it, and most importantly why you feel the need to say it. Much of the time the motivation is one of cruelty, motivated by the wounds within the gun gripper's soul... Whatever inflicted the wound often causes the one who wears it to resort to evil deeds as a means to heal the open sore. Sadly these atrocities that the gun holder commits just end up leaving the wound deeper and more decayed.

30 Rock and the worm

Let me say this first.. bahhhhahahahhahahahahhahahahhaaaaaaaaaa!!! Absolutely love this show!!!!!! Its pee pee on myself hilarious! Tina Fey is comedic genius along with Mr. Baldwin! I started watching it when I went to visit my mother and sister in Alabama.. When I returned however I didn't follow up with it very well. Anyways I went to NBC's website and caught the most recent episode online...I was doubled over with laughter. These people are so insanely funny and the girl that plays jenna, actually made me see her as someone other than the fruitcake serial killing twin from Law and Order SVU (which is my favorite all time tv show, I like poe come on what did ya expect?) Anyways tracy morgan is just awesome as well...The whole cast is terrific...I hope the show continues to do well, I see it earned a spot on NBC's prestigious thursday night line up so it can't be doing to bad. OK going to go watch some more episodes....Oh yeah and E weekend edition ended its Show today with M.E.'s Oscar nominated song from An inconvient Truth.

Mainstream

I will stand in line
Buy all the right shoes
Dye my hair so its less red
wear some heals
wear a skirt
Talk of pop
Eat my candy
Swallow my soul
Drink red wine
Be a girl
Follow the expectations
Mainstream at the seams
lie to all
Even me
So that I can be that
Which is mainstream

the line is too straight
the shoes are all wrong
The hairy lips are still red
the skirt has a tear
the pop went flat
the candy is sour
The soul turned to bile
the red wine turned to pennies
The girl found a hole in her vagina
The Expectation slithered into eve
Mainstream has been deceived
honesty to all
even me
So that I can be
anything but mainstream

People who don't give back

I've been in florida for a little over a year now. Within that time, I have gotten reaquainted with family members whom I'd not seen since I was a small child. What I have learned from that experience is that I don't like them very much. I have a cousin, who I used to spend quite a bit of time with when I first arrived here. I live on a lowly monthly income so when things got really tight, they suggested a roommate. Its a guy that until recently worked with my cousin's husband.. Well my cousin's husband quit his job, dale, my roommate does not drive because of a suspended liscense.Neither do I as far as that goes, not because of a suspended liscense, its due to it being nonexistant. So therefore, when this happened it left my roomate without a job as well.. So this is my rant. We, Dale and I, have loaned money to my cousin. I've helped them with yard work, yard sales, keeping their daughter...House work...for nothing in return... Now that the chips are down, they won't answer our phone calls or anything... Its been two weeks... Dales income helps me live a little more comfortably. I could do it without him but it would be tight. Ok the problem is, I don't have enough to support Dale... I can't throw him out, there's no where for him to go...What the hell am I supposed to do? I'm hoping that things work themselves out.. Trying to stay optimistic...However it still doesnt keep me from wanting leave a nasty message on my cousin's answering machine. Lovely words come to mind, thank goodness they have a child, so thats the one thing that prohibits me from actually going through with the colorful messages i'd like to leave

quite chatty

Oh a new thought!! Oh boy gotta go blog it down, hehehe Not really, Honestly I have another essay due this tuesday and I'm hoping to take snippets from the flow of babel that I've blogged so far and construct an essay from it.. I work better that way. Ok well the new thought--- how come I'm not funny? I like funny, I'm easy to laugh, I'm a goober but I can't write humor? How weird is that? I get called a dork, almost daily for something corny that just seems to fall out of my mouth.. Oh well i shall work on it, and i'll ask the TBS station for help